before the New Year celebration

My father drove me from work again.  I stayed over for an hour.  I got there by car service, same 30 bucks.  It was good to find out that tomorrow I don't have to go to work due to holiday, New Year.  But...I will need to spend it with family, maybe even stay over for a night...which is not that great...but my car is still under snow (shaked some salt over it) and I can't drive back when I want.
I am boiling some old frozen udon noodle, a lot of it.  Just put some Chinese black ointment on my legs and feet - still aching after walking - called Alice and said sorry that I did not make it on time - will see her tomorrow.
Bills are high, money is disappearing fast.  Drinking a lot of coffee, hot and cold.  Should buy more red juices.  Health is so-so...weak.  Otherwise, everything is better than anyone in my situation could wish for.

I didn't play anything last night...sort of passed out.  Guess I was tired.  Don't recall seeing any dreams... Tonight I will sleep a lot, even if I go to bed very late.  I hope.  

It was a bright shining morning before Christmas.

all snowed-in

Two days I was walking to and from work by foot, in my motorcycle boots not meant for long walking.  One hour and fourty minutes each way.  After two days of such extra walking activities, my gluteus maximus are aching and I think I have corns on my souls of feet.  Today I couldn't walk anymore and ordered a car service to work (they started working, unlike public transportation).  My father drove me back when he was going home on his way from work.  Car services now charge quadruple amounts and that's not funny.
At work I received a standing hanger for clothes I bought on sale to put my new suits on.  I checked my car and it is still under at least a foot of snow - we will wait for Saturday's rain, maybe I'll be able to drive it out on Sunday then.  Definitely no earlier.  Everyone blames mayor for the usual favoritism in cleaning efforts.  Except this time they are obviously visible due to last term, I guess.  At least it's not cold from wind like before.
I am preparing elbows 35 pasta with pesto sauce, podravka, mushroom sauce and garlic salt.  I intend to eat it.
The GTA4 is un-fulfilling.  Maybe it's time to install Necrovision...

let it snow...I would, but s-know what?

It's snowing all day.  My grandmother even called and said I don't have to visit her, because my parents told her the roads are slippery, snowed in.  Snow is still coming down.  I am boiling semolina pasta in a mushroom sauce, with vegeta and salt.  Then I will put Veggis Slices romano etc. soy cheese flakes on top of it, some somen soup base and soy sauce.  After the meal, I will install GTA.  I am so glad it's not a Steam game...  Smoking R1 cigarettes... nothing special...  I am having too many space-related dreams.  My mind is playing tricks on me, using my current feelings of escapism.

computer games: fake reality within fake reality of life. gets you accustomed to real life.

I just finished Joe's Adventure.  Character of Joe is a man who lives by his own conscience and that is the most important thing in his life: to respect himself.  Character of Vito is a fatalist: he often lets fate decide how his life will go.  Interesting characters in this game.  I am waiting for another Mafia II installment with the adventures of Henry.
What's next?  Fallout4 is still stalling...  maybe GTA: Liberty City?

chilling...nothing to do...Christmas...

I played Joe's Adventure all day, until I got to the mission where Joe has to deliver a car with a bomb under the seat.  I seem to blow up each time...got frustrated.  Game stalls, Steam issues...Not even trying Fallout New Vegas, since no patches came out...  There is nothing to do.  I am boiling Ramen soup.  Maybe I'll go watch younger women dance funny on erotic sites...  It's a time killing, but not that arousing at all... I guess I am getting old.  Most of fun comes from reading the messages these young perverts write... some put out their religious and philosophical views between requests to watch naked breasts.  They are hilarious, some of them think they are not idiots.  Merry Christmas to me.  I bought a Mega Millions lottery ticket.  It won't win.  Some things in life are certain and that gives me mental stability.

Omega-3 day a-coming

Had a cheeseless pizza with broccoli, eggplant, onions, olilves and spinach at Ciccio's on Avenue U.  Very tasty.  Tomorrow I will have a day off due to Christmas holiday.  That's awesome.  Maybe I will do some laundry, maybe just play Joe's Adventure in Mafia II all day.  Not sure yet.  This month seems to be the most "chatty", it seems...judging by amount of entries.

Finally got Caster 5.  Didn't finish Jimmy's Vendetta yet:  firstly, the hard mode had excellent AI and I simply couldn't kill the bad guys, then - fatigue.  Received several gifts for New Year for parents, wrapped.  More to come.  I should buy something for grandmother as well.  So far just sending her leg bandages.
Must wait for next check: accidentally found iTwin usb thingy on web: had to buy it.  New thing.  Spent a lot of money this holidays.  But it's ok: no vacation.  Bought two cakes at Cherry Hill for tomorrow.  Also bought the dell pickles (baby) that I like and dark bread (not so tasty).  Eating maki rolls seaweed wrapped rice crackers.
Lunar eclipse came and went.  Still have to pay taxes:)  Have to pick up suits from dry cleaners tomorrow.

Baberuthing for Wholesomeness

Suits will be ready on Wednesday.  After work I wanted to eat Pho Chai soup, so I went to Pho Chai Ho, or something like that, on 86 Street.  The soup was delicious, and portion was big, but I was still hungry, so I went to Wasabi Sushi few doors up the block and bought two avocado rolls, one tofu roll and aged tofu appetizer.  I expected to eat just the avocado rolls, but it appears that my food is eaten already.  I guess I was still hungry.  Tomorrow I have to remember to buy a cake for an office party.  Updated blog design: included a gadget "Followers", so my conscience can be cleaner: not leading nobody towards nothing...  Going to finish playing Jimmy's Vendetta today, after taking a hot bath.

Peace is the message.

I was pleasantly surprised when Jimmy's Vendetta did not end at the death of Big Sal.  I still have a mission to finish and then I am done, I think.  I already purchased Joe's Adventure, another add-on to Mafia II.  I really liked Joe's character and I think I will really enjoy playing it after I am done with Jimmy.  If there will be more add-on mission, I will purchase them as well: it turned out I liked Mafia II more than I expected.

I did not shorten the pants on my three new suits: the dry cleaners close to me were closed.  I already made a mistake going to an unknown place last time and waiting three extra days before I got the suits back, so I will call them on Monday morning, hoping they will open.  Maybe I will take the suits there after work.  I was sitting at computer trying to figure out where to take vacation, but every time I would start booking, a feeling of depression would come over, I would drink espresso and cancel the reservation.  Maybe it's the change in weather.  Maybe I am effected by it.  By the way, on Tuesday we are expecting a red moon.  Maybe there'll be a nice meteor shower at the same time...and if the world still stands, I got 3 more packs of Lavazza.
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philosophical thought of the day: wartime legalizes murder.  a period before war is marked by increased corruption, which legalizes thievery.  when corruption is legitimized, the rapes and tortures and denial of human rights is legalized.  for some reason, it always leads to more violence, not less.  humanity is breaking the code of holy ten commendments, one after another under the guise of fighting with "the shit".  It appears that the more "shit" you have, the more you are fighting that "shit" in others.

maybe shopping will sooth the soul?

I realized that some of my suits are more than 10 years old and no matter how many times I will take them to dry cleaners, they just looked...slightly chewed, as if they are definitely not new.  Therefore, it make them appear to be less clean.  So I decided to use the Christmas sale time to buy me new suits.  My father got very excited and suggested to go to far-away mall to search for super discounts either today or tomorrow.  He got excited, because there is absolutely nothing to do and doing something meaningful, at least seemingly, is always a feel-good in our meaningless, pointless little world.

Busy day at work.  Ordered from Dynasty chinese food restaurant: got a free calendar (gave it away, but it was rather fancy).  Food was not cheap at all, but tasty.  I had bean curd with broccoli in garlic sauce.  Upon coming home, an hour and a half later, I had a ready-made rice soup.  I will continue playing Jimmy's Vendetta later on.

Vendetta

Finished Metro 2033 on Ranger level.  Achieved new achievement: Survivor tag.  Started playing an add-on to Mafia II: Jimmy's Vendetta.  Very nice, just like the main game.  Saw something downloading onto Steam for Fallout New Vegas: could it be very needed patch?
Tomorrow is party with coworkers.  I gotta put on a different jacket, something straight from the dry cleaners.
Can't fall asleep even after taking benadryl.  Bought artificial bouquet (actually, two) for my office: I forget to water real plants and they die fast.  Got sleepers as Christmas present from a grateful client.  She brought gifts for many.  Ordered chocolate tower, 7 boxes for administrative secretaries.  They came in today, cute.  Then I started to worry that secretaries are single and not that old, so they could have seen it as a crush.  Acted like an idiot, explained that it's politeness, as if they didn't know.  Hey, I don't want sexual harassment on my hands for holiday spirit...  It's crazy nowdays.  Although Switzerland yesterday allowed official incest.  Who expected that lobby to be so strong?  Anyway... Sent card to Sylvia.  Nothing to report.  Going to try to sleep after a hot shower.

I still got nothing to say to nobody...as weird as it may sound

Upon morning meditation, I concluded that everything is going great in my life and there is nothing I need to change about it.  It is a great accomplishment to be assured in own self-righteousness.  It is very good to feel as if you earned the right to breathe until the moment of your death comes.  There is nothing more that needs to be accomplished.  Everything is OK.  It's just about making peace with time, relaxing own mind, chilling, maintaining the same level of functioning and wishing peace to everybody .

I already paid 50 bucks (by the way, why do Americans call their currency as they call deers?) to be at the Christmas corporate party this week.   I think it will be held Thursday late pm until the morning.  It's funny: corporate+Christmas+party, ha ha.  But it's a great social event to say: I am here, and I still need a job, please don't fire me without much reason for it.  More of a social gathering to show your face amongst coworkers in emergent recession: look, I am celebrating something with you, maybe it is more than a paycheck that keeps my ass close to you on a weekly basis.  Maybe not, but who will be able to tell, anyway?

tis' the season to be jolly

Came from work, not overloaded day.  Had an espresso: mixed Lavazza and El Caribe coffees, turned out to be something like Dunkin Donut Turbo, which is excellent.  People on the radio discussed new taxes all day: what are they going to do, leave the city?  Eventually, after more new taxes will be implemented, with some more "can't smoke here, can't park there, taxes for calling 911" I will consider moving away from New York along with plenty of residents, but so far it still good.  Of course, New York 13-15 years ago was much better, with much more prosperity for everyone, not just rich...with less sicknesses, crime, terrorist watches, more healthier families, less divorce rates, less expensive everything, but I guess we get what we choose and we can't choose well.  But on the other hand, it's not New Yorkers.  It's all over the whole world., same thing in every country, up and down the equator.  I guess it's the trend of times.  I guess we are not going to "make it" after all.  Oh well, I just had Ramen soup (traditional) with Veggie Slices three soy cheese flavored flakes - now that's something to discuss!!  I also had some Wise Onion and Garlic potato chips, left over General Tso's tofu and some gyoza.  I just purchased an add-on to Mafia II: Jimmy's Vendetta, 10 bucks.  But I am still in the Ranger mode of Metro 2033.  Steam, being Steam, is stalling, once in 40 minutes.  That's acceptable, not as bad as Fallout New Vegas.  I tried to play it again: stalling all the time, no fun.  Noticed that Steam downloaded Team Fortress II Beta.  I used to play it, then Steam "updated" and the image on screen got split in half.  I couldn't play it after, even after reinstall.  Wonder if Beta version will play.  I'll find out over the weekend.  Life's been good so far, and today is Friday, December 10, 2010.  I've made it so far in life. Yeah!

dreams to think about

"Layered" reality:
Simultaneous cumulative experience of life.

Idea for new gadget I would buy:  GPS hand watch.

I am not Locutus, borgs

Preparing pasta.  It was a busy day at the office.  Today I had more energy than usual.  It was snowing today, with some sunshine.  The weather was very cold.  I am heating the apartment with oven even though the central heating is on.  Got a discount in cafeteria today and a free Sierra Mist can: came for free with someone's order and they decided they didn't want it so much.  Received first holiday season cards from one of the departments, so I ordered cards online - should be here in a week.  Soon parents will stop by to pick up CD they asked me to make.  Even sooner I will be enjoying semolina pasta with new mushroom dry flakes spices.  Had a tea between my coffees today.  Life's ok.  Colder temperatures ahead - more energy.  Nice.

joe barbaro turned out to be the hero of the game

Got the laundry, visited mom/grandmom, bought stuff to drink and eat, most of it in 99c store on Avenue Z and Coney Island, rest in Fair Grocery.  Finished playing Mafia II: game was excellent, ending was horrible: Joe turned out to be Man of the Year, Vito, the main character, did not end on a noble note.  Checked Fallout4, even in windowed mode: same crap, game short-circuits every 15 minutes.  I can't enjoy it.  Too bad, I will keep it on computer, maybe check it in a month - hopefully it will be patched.  Clearly the issue is poor recognizability of NVIDIA graphics card.  I doubt it can be fixed on my end, it's up to game developers.  Maybe they should come up with the same standards in video cards and everybody will buy that, sort of like Windows OS.  I noted that Metro 2033 was downloading something in background: turned out there is a new Ranger mode, easy and hardcore.  Since I don't feel like unpacking GTA (Liberty City) - would be similar to Mafia II - I am making up my "thirst" for survivalist Stalker-Fallout type games by replaying Metro 2033 in a Ranger mode.  It's ok, doubt there will be any good games coming out in the next 6 months anyway, might as well prolong the pleasures of playing some good old stuff.  I noted that Arizona Green Tea with Ginseng and Honey is now sold in Extra Sweet kind: thought it wouldn't matter but the taste is better.  Now I'll finish my Hiltons with some Snapple and Metro 2033 and call it a night.

it's all about peace, as usual.

Took laundry to cleaners, visited parent(s): mother is absent, went to theater.  Drank two cups of tea there; usually I drink coffee.  Had three pastries I like, vegan: feel like I gained a pound just now.  Nothing to drink in apartment but Jumex mango nectar - I should have bought something to drink.  I might have extra small can of Mr. Brown coffee, however, have to check the fridge.  Will continue to play Mafia II.  I like the characters.  As if they were created with real people in mind.  It's been cold outside all day.  My father bought me an autumn coat - no better than mine, not many pockets, but supposed to be warmer than my windbreaker.  Ok, whatever.
Yesterday on the news anchors discussed NASA discovery of alien life forms.  It's all over internet today. Fucktards.  I ain't buying it.  First demons, now aliens.  They can shove this crap up their asses any day, I'm out of these games.  There was a world, they fucked it up, now it's going to die.  End of story. No need to worry.  It's all about peace.  And food, and rental payments.  And job.  I don't need this shit in my life or whatever is left of it.

whatever happens on Earth, stays on Earth

Played Mafia II : good game, easy, relaxing, very nice so far.  Steam stalls only once an hour+.  If Fallout 4 would be stalling like that, I'd be playing it now still.  I am eating couscous kasha, it's almost 1am and the benadryl is not taking any effect, so I can't fall asleep.  I will be tired tomorrow morning.  Now I ran out of Hilton Gold, smoking R1 and L&B (if any mayor reads this, they were bought abroad legally and taxes were payed over there included in price of purchase), but Hilton Gold were better, I should have ordered more of them...Well, I am still waiting for possible delivery of other brand of cigarettes, maybe they will taste better.

I feel good. Sorry

I tried to play Fallout 4 after a day of not touching it: the game continues to short out the computer every 15 to 20 minutes, making it impossible to enjoy.  I will wait until the patches are included.  On a positive note, I decided to try playing Mafia II again and it appears that it's been patched, because now it's playing well.  Steam was not knocking out my computer for a full hour and a half!...then it froze.  I guess I will be playing Mafia 2 for now, hoping that Fallout will be patched soon.
My mother prepared Brussel sprouts dish and vegetable soup today.  After coming home, I went to see Alice and spent 80 bucks on acupuncture session.  It was worth it.  I decided not to eat the salad at my parents' apartment - don't know why, don't feel like eating any salads lately.  However, I will have to eat it tomorrow at grandma's apartment.  Today is November 28, 2010.  I sent my rent payment, my utility bill check and a letter to an old acquittance from Rochester earlier today.  It is 1:35am and I still don't feel like sleeping.   I noticed that I no longer expect much from life.  Not that I expected much in the past years, but now it seems to be something natural to my being.  That feels ... good.

useless information

Just came back from work: stopped by Wendy's Plate, a "uniquely vegetarian" restaurant with unbelievably tasty, but pricey food.  I bought a Greek wrap w/out feta cheese, mushroom barley soup and home made potato fries.
I installed 1T disk, put windows on it, works great, however, another drive is not loading for some reason and I had to repair XP PRO on previous drive.  Doesn't really matter, how many drives do I work with?  I'll do it later.  Tomorrow I will visit my parents to celebrate The Turkey Massacre Day.   I won't eat the victim, instead, my mother is promising to prepare cauliflower w/bread crumbs, vegetable soup and mashed potatoes.  I got them expensive chocolates (Rocher, Godiva, Lindt) and Max will get 4 gourmet Cesar food packages.

I got nothing to say to nobody

Can't sleep...just drank an espresso...Thursday is Thanksgiving, I will be off work.  Finished General Tso's tofu: the fortune cookie said "In order to discover who you are, first learn who everybody else is.  You're what is left."  It seems to be so, I guess I am what is left.

what if it's all one Adam?

Well, the meteors will peak tonight, but I am already peaking on extra food in my stomach: just came back from King's Buffet on 86th Street.  It turns out on Wednesdays All-you-can-eat menu costs cheaper.  I am still filled with food and have to flush it with espresso.  The fortune cookie given to me on exit reads:
"To be eighty years young is more cheerful and hopeful than forty years old".  I don't know what it means...is that a "bad" fortune or...what? I don't grow any younger... Is that a warning of hardships to come?

meah

I thought about my life so far and I am somewhat satisfied with it.  I don't think I could change much and doubtfully it could have been any better than it was.  I could even say it was better than I could expect looking at things retroactively.  It was nice and it is still nice.  I am grateful for every experience and hope that the rest of my life will not involve any more stresses.  Not more than I have now.  As for the search of intelligent life on Earth, it is still an issue that I cannot report any progress on yet.  But the search will continue.

Two days before Leonids

Busy day at work, didn't do much notes though.
After work I went to Telco while waiting for my order to get warm in N&D pizzeria - three vegan pizza slices (basil, tomato sauce, garlic on bread w/out cheese) and an order of garlic nuts - I bought three shirts which came with free ties, all for under 30 dollars.  Now I finished pizza, left the garlic nuts for tomorrow, drinking Manhattan Special Espresso Coffee Soda (diet), and finishing yesterday's package of hazelnuts.
Yesterday I did not play Fallout4: got tired of computer turning off so much.  Hoping they will fix these issues soon.

Overdue Vulcan emotional outburst is cancelled for this year.

As I was going home from the busy day at work, I was wondering whether there will be Leonids Meteor Shower this November.  I had some of those fancy Indian pickles and two sandwiches with tomatoes and mushroom salad from the Russian store.  Then I had a cup of espresso, with just two sugar cubes.  Today is November 08, 2010.  The last time I was sure I will be alive on that date was November 8, 1998.  Peoples were weird today, especially closer to 5pm.  Coworker complimented my new shoes, so I gave her directions to Telco where she can get those for 15 dollars.  Every time I eat now, my stomach's bulging up...it goes down only an hour or so later...I wonder if it's some sort of malfunction.  Installed a free antivirus software: the fancy one expired...recession - don't feel like paying for something I can get free - we'll see if it was a wise idea later.  I'm smoking Hilton Gold - more carbon monoxide - I like it better than other brands available now.  Maybe carbon monoxide IS a poison to the system - maybe you feel like your system is shutting down and you are closer to death...that excites...you start fighting subconsciously...gives more energy...probably people satisfied with their life do not smoke.  None of the things mentioned in this post matter.

Ode to Good Sleep

Busy day at work: ate lunch two hours later than usual, lots of stuff to do on Monday.  After work I felt a need to relax and I went to my acupuncturist from Jian Ning Acupuncture on Avenue U, Alice.  She is a sort of miracle worker: if she would do advertising, she would probably get much more business: pains, blood pressure, excess weight, all sorts of ailments without medication or doctor - at affordable price - boom - and it's fixed.  I lost 20 lb in a month without exercise, without changing my eating habits.  Now I came in, said I have stress from not sleeping well for a while - after I came back from her, I went to bed and slept from 7pm to 4am, which makes it my personal record of 9 hours!

Chatty mood tonight

Today I found out I have a salary increase.  That was a good news, as it makes me feel more secure about the job.  I received Hilton Gold cigarettes and they are much better than the ones I was smoking before.  It's getting colder now and I need to heat apartment with the stove.  For some reason, it's on for about 2-3 hours now and it is still somewhat cold...I must have not checked all the holes next to window...or maybe I'm just getting old'n'cold.  I continue playing Fallout New Vegas.  Great game, hopefully, patches will come out soon.  I'm managing my fatigue well: it appears once all blood was sucked out, the remains are not overly "juiced", which implies that blood is the oldest known antibacterial agent, like penicillin and that suckers are prone to infections.  That really blows the "cool" image of lunatics, I guess, for me.  The food in the cafeteria wasn't too great today...I am thinking to order out this week to celebrate my increase in salary.  It's nice, extra 30 bucks every week.  So far life's been grand...some dude came up to me and he just got here from another state, hungry, no money, from Ryker's Island.  I gave him some, hopefully, he won't stake my apartment, because I am not that rich.  Or good-natured.  That could have been me.  I'm lucky to have what I have.  I guess I don't like seeing people hungry...Food really makes anyone OK.  You can be poor, without stable housing, but if you have food - life's ok.  Unless you have severe mental illnesses.  Than, I guess, it's never ok.  Although, it's probably also something you can get used to...we all have some mental issues, most just able to deal with them in civilized manner.  People...are like children...egotistic, self-serving, scared of pain yet running forth without a caution...very young they are...don't appear to be living more than they do...  We probably all feel like children to God...even the oldest...maybe that's the reason He doesn't kill us all yet... although everyone pretty much deserves it...maybe just don't like the bad karma... or maybe it's like with Noah's flood - once done, felt bad, said won't do it again...maybe the same with all religions...once killed his kids, decided not to do it again...so He lets us kill each other on our own...to have clean conscience...Nobody wants to be bothered, after all.  Life is great and those who have it want to keep it that way.  They choosing politicians again...I saw some posts: peoples are saying funny things, like voting for cartoon characters and their pets...  I guess computer gaming industry is not the only aspect of life that's experiencing crisis...  Usually peoples choose the individuals they would like to fuck or wouldn't mind being fucked by...now it's something different...weird...don't really care where it is going, going to shower and then bed.

Today is Halloween ... or is it Hellowin? either way...

I decided to continue playing Fallout4, as is.

Today I visited my grandmother, went to Mets Supermarket and bought some food/drinks.  As I was going to the pizzeria to get two slices of vegan pizza, with plastic bags, one of the customers said to me that she doesn't have any candy.  There were lots of kids walking on the streets with bags...coming into stores for candy...all dressed up as ghouls, goblins and scary monsters...I guess it's a blow to my ego:)  Or forewarning of crisis in mental healthcare of general population... Either way, my debts are covered and I am on a pay-as-you-go plan.

Life as Somewhat Expected

Well, I am continuing playing Fallout4, but without much enthusiasm.  The bugs are plenty: my computer shuts down every 15 to 45 minutes, some saves take me back to the first scene, with some tribal pack and no discovered map, sometimes I'm stuck between some cargo and boxes and can't move, occasionally I "melt/morph" with my accompanying characters into a one thing, and so on.  Of course, the frequent reboots is the most annoying issue.
Maybe it would be a better strategy to wait for a patch before continuing playing 15 to 20 minute intervals...?
By the way, STEAM updated Mafia II as I noticed... Update was downloaded and installed...did not help a bit, the game is still not playing: not even the titles.  For some reason it shows that I played almost half-an-hour in it...although I don't even know how the opening credits look like.
I guess I will try playing Fallout 4 again, but not today, because it's getting me aggravated instead of entertained.

humanity is pouring into one multicultural stream of... humanity

Playing Fallout New Vegas...so many bugs...had to restart certain missions many times...
The game, as expected, is AWESOME...however, these bugs...make it somewhat annoying at times...
But it's not like it's possible to find anything better at this time, so I guess I'll play slower and wait for a patch.

Visited a new store T.J.Max on Kings Highway and East 15th...VERY nice.  I liked cheap Mexican sweatshirts, but had no reason to buy them...unless I want to wear them inside, but I already have a sports house jacket or two.  Had A LOT of coffee today...going back from work put on some Reggie radio station, turned my heater on - almost felt asleep, found myself moving on a wrong side of one-way street.  Luckily it was quick and nothing happened.  Of course, I had to stop the car, get myself a Dunkin Donut coffee (iced), turn air conditioner on to continue moving.  Saturday I have to be somewhere where I have to be.  I gotta remember it.

Doubtful, yet excited

Well, the moment I've been waiting for has arrived: I received Fallout4:New Vegas.  I was very excited up until I saw the Steam Logo...  My joy has ended: now I have 50/50 chance I will play the game I really wanted to play.  It's downloading now...2 hours left...I will be very upset if it will repeat Mafia II fate.  If it will work, most likely I will spend the whole night on my computer...

That's my Exciting Life...mmmm

It was a calm day at work.  For lunch I had double yellow rice, potato knish, bagel with macaroni, mustard, margerine, tomatoes, lettuce and lots of coffee.  I also drank lime soda, something like Squirt.  I don't recall if I ate anything at home...since I was not doing too well in a computer game and was smoking excessively...
I've been playing Caesar IV all evening..Now I am tired.  I did not accomplish anything - Rome keeps sending their troops to dispose of me as governor.  I think my biggest problem is getting into too much debt...
A sad news - today I found out that Max Payne 3 was postponed AGAIN, till August of 2011. 

I am currently playing Caesar IV.  Started from the very beginning.  I think I started playing a year ago, but another installment of STALKER came in and I did not continue playing it, since it was giving problems to my previous video card anyway.  Now it's good.  Nothing better to do anyway. 
Will come see grandmother today, then play Caesar IV till I get bored.  It's easy with that game.  Whatever keeps me sane in this world...

who coughed in my soup?

nothing to play at the moment

Ordered 4 whole wheat sandwiches with avocado, onions, mustard, lettuce and tomatoes and then decided to order a veggie burger with just tomatoes at local deli.  It was very tasty, plus I will have a great breakfast tomorrow.

Still undecided whether to replay Spore or start Borderlands all over, at the higher levels...  or maybe finish Tropico 3?  I will not finish Fear2... not now for sure, maybe later...  It's a long waiting time until FallOut 4...

october blues

Fear 2: not bad game...but not very different from any other shooter.  Played for a day, maybe more, then got bored.  Doubt I can give it more than 3 out of 5 stars.  Checked out online releases of games...nothing good is coming out any time soon, except for the Fallout New Vegas.  Computer game industry seems to hit a crisis point as well...just like other areas of life...Just finding myself going to bed earlier, sleeping more.  I feel very sleepy lately...  I am bored, there is nothing to do with my time.  Accidentally, today noticed that GoAnimate.com got updated significantly, but is it really more than a day of entertainment?  Doubtfully... I see winter in my dreams...  It's very pretty... Maybe I will check the news and go to bed...

waiting for FallOut4....

It turns out that APB game servers closed down soon after I purchased that game on amazon.com, before it arrived.  Although the game was sold at high discount, that was paying for nothing.
Installed The Club: did not expect anything great from it...and did not experience anything great.  It's a plain shooting game for very young gamers.  Maybe good for teenagers....not for older gamers.
Mafia II was "born still".  Not playing at all.  Must be some Steam issues, because system fits parameters.  As I recalled, the original Mafia had too many bugs to be played on my computer as well....weird.

The only unopened game left is Fear 2.  Now I recalled why Fear was so familiar: I played it before, when it just came out...I guess it wasn't such a big deal for me, otherwise I would remember it and not buy it again.  If so, there is no rush to install Fear 2.  Unless it is like FallOut 3 to FallOut2... What is there left?  Only few more missions in Tropico 3... tired of it already, maybe later...  I guess I will play Fear 2 tomorrow...

 

 Took laundry back from the laundromat.  Had a lot of coffee...  visited parents.... tomorrow will see grandmother... or actually today..it's almost 5am... 

money lost..it seems...again...

Finished playing Bioshock2.  Beautifully done game, very exciting and unexpectedly thought-provoking, like Prey game.  Tried to play Multiplayer - nobody is on servers...maybe its time is over.  Installed MafiaII.  As soon as I started installing, saw the Steam icon....my heart went down...it's always a 50/50 chance that game won't play or have too many bugs to be enjoyed.   My feelings turned out to be correct:  it's not playing.  I will reinstall, but it didn't help with another game I purchased...so I am not very hopeful...  I already checked validity of files, running updates, fixes, but...
I THINK, AS  A GAMER, GAMES THAT ARE SOLD FOR A STEAM ACCOUNT SHOULD HAVE A WARNING LABEL ON THEM.  How was I supposed to know it was a Steam game?  If I know there is a high chance game won't play, I wouldn't pay as much for it...if the companies would put a label (ONLY ON STEAM) then maybe I would limit my budget on "risking it".  This thought will stay in my head regardless whether Mafia II will play after another reinstall...

BioShocked

This day I finished playing Bioshock 2 before 2am.  I am going to bed now.  I wouldn't have the will to stop playing if the game wouldn't collapsed after a bug.  Unfortunatelly, second version has more bugs then the first one, especially when picking up stuff from vending machines.  What a wonderful surprise these Bioshocks were: I did not expect this game series to be so well-thought and well-designed.  Even though I am still somewhere in the middle of game, I already want a sequel.
P.S. Today we ordered Thai food at work.  I recalled why I don't usually go to Thai restaurants: sweet rice noodles and super-spicy soups?  Nah.

I'm just chilling, with no feeling, slowly peeling as I'm wheeling...

Slow day at work...it was busier in the morning hours...First day with the sunshine after 6 days of rainy weather.  Yesterday I ordered the whole large vegan pizza...today I had split pea soup, boiled cauliflower, couscous and the usual Maki rolls (rice crackers in seaweed wrapper) with coffee.  Lots of coffee today.  I thought about something and I am getting a new attitude towards life... feels like I am getting old...just want to be alone and play computer games...and enjoy the food...in rational amounts, of course.

Smoking Gauloises Brunes

Busy day at work, but almost no drainage, so I did not get tired and was able to play games right after work. Played Warcraft III for few hours in a row until I got bored.  Today I received Bioshock2 and MafiaII, so I decided to take a break from Warcraft III and play Bioshock2.  It's still installing...it's been more than half-an-hour...  At work I ate boiled potatoes, broccoli and some pasta.  After coming home I had three packages of barley kasha with soy sauce, herbs, garlic salt and regular salt.  I thought it would fill me, but I was slightly hungry even after that...so I ate fried tofu.

The weather is amazing: it's been raining for five days, with very occasional sun showing.  Sometimes I doubt that winter will come, but it is noticeable that the weather is getting colder.  For example, I don't need to use air conditioning unit during evening anymore.  I sit at computer warmly dressed. I don't use the ventilator.  Clearly, it's not summer anymore.

Consecutive good night of sleeping!

So, the World of Warcraft, just as suspected, turned out to be a horrible children's game that I couldn't play for more than few hours.  However, same company Blizzard's game WarCraft III is now installed and I played it for two days.  It's ok.  The main character, so far, is a white blond prince (well, that is standard in games) that betrays his kingdom and kills his unsuspecting father The King, joining the forces of Undead after fighting with them, to have more power.  He hires mercs to help him with battle, than burns his ships to make sure the soldiers are not able to escape and are forced to fight his enemies, then blames the mercs for burning the ships and slays them with the angry soldiers, who think that mercs did it without his orders.  Not the usual noble character.  When you click on him to move him, he calls you a fool.  I am half through the game...wonder if he will drop his super special sword that doesn't really change much in the game and becomes "good" again.  But - it's a city/camp building elements game and that's what is great about it.  I love city-building games, with upgrades, etc.

By the way I couldn't wait and pre-purchased Fallout4: New Vegas.
The Bioshock 2 was also ordered and will come to me shortly.