status quo day.

Sort of a slow day at work, volunteers helped a lot.  At work I had boiled potatoes and salad with broccoli, beets, tomatoes, pineapple and melon.  Drank more coffee than usually.  After coming home, I bought Boing mango juice, two cans of Arizona Green Tea, drank Turbo espresso, preparing young potatoes.  The bad news in gaming got better: yesterday there was an update for Fallout 4: New Vegas and the game does not kick me out every 10 minutes.  The bad news is that the last 15 saves mysteriously dissappeared...  Since there is nothing else to play at the moment, I started the game from the very beginning.  Overnight developed mysterious scratches on my neck.  Life's peachy, no problems to report.  Things go as usually.  Tomorrow is the meeting with parents.

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I guess Silent Hill 3, besides many other issues, was not really intended for PC to be played, but rather some sort of gaming machine, or console.  I am not breaking my nerves with that camera...nor with these controls...
By the way, Cryostasis decided for me: the loaded game was screwed up and not playable.
I'm done with games for today....

waiting for better sales at Mitsuwa supermarket in NJ

Small cubed tofu, extra firm: place in skillet with corn oil, lots of it.  Add soy sauce, vegeta, sundried tomato and basil leaves, garlic salt, and mushroom dry spices.  Heat on high flame for 10 minutes, mixing every 2-3 minutes. The result is unbelievably tasty dish.  That's what I am eating right now.  Plus drinking espresso from Dunkin Donuts Turbo coffee.  Nice!  Unlike Cryostasis, which is still aggravating me more than entertaining me.  I am not sure whether to finish it or start Silent Hill 3.  I'll give it a last try...  Brink is coming out soon, as well as Rage.  I decided definitely to buy these games, but not now, after their price will go slightly down, or in about a month, whichever is sooner.  I think both games will have some glitches that will be fixed later on, so I'll wait for patched versions.  Same with Bulletstorm: I will buy it later...The engine of game is new and amazing, but I don't particularly like it.  But to be true, I have to say it's quite amazing and new.

cryostasis

It was not a busy day at work.  I ordered an eggplant sandwich at pizza place and it was delicious.  Most of the day I felt somewhat fat, full stomached.  We had a lot of overweight clients today.  I felt so full, I went to see Alice and she did a great job, as usually.  Acupuncture really works for me.  At the Met Supermarket I bought lots of cans of chick peas, bagels, Snapple Green Tea.  Good news: I found Silent Hill 3 CDs in my car, they felt to the side when I was driving.  However, I already started playing Cryostasis.  So far, it's not a great game.  I am surprised it got three, not two stars.  However, I just started it, maybe it will get better as I move along.

Ahmed English Tea No. 1 evening

Eating three slices of vegan tomato/garlic pizza is taking away the painful occurrence that happened today:  I received 5 disks of Silent Hill 3, placed the package (opened) in my coat, and now all I have is the package and the disks are all gone.  I still hope I took them out at work, but it's very doubtful: package wouldn't be in my pocket then.  The only thing is maybe they fell out in the car, but that's far fetched...  I will check tomorrow morning, because right now I am full of pizza and ready to finish the boss stage of Bioshock .  Well, actually, I am tired and don't feel like walking back to the car.  The weather is getting weird...sort of foggy, without drizzle, smells funny.  It is possible we will have some kind of thunderstorm during the night.

Bioshocked again

Had matza balls and mushroom soup at parents' apartment, also rice and mushroom pancakes.  Stopped at Stop'N'Shop, bought: Tofu pups soy hot dogs; extra firm Nasoya tofu, Italian bread with everything, American soy cheese from Veggie Slices, Silk creamers (2), red kidney beans and chick peas from Goya, three Uncle Ben's instant Long Grain and Wild rice packages, etc.  Had headache all day, now it's sort of gone.  Received Cryostasis, but decided to finish replaying Bioshock instead.  Found a new good antivirus program: I have 15 days to decide whether to purchase it.  I think I will, it seems to be better than other antiviruses out there, called Spy Emergency.  It seems today is another holiday.

Tomorrow's Off

Celebrated first sedar of Passover with parents: ate lots of various foods, overate, felt very happy due to prolonged fullness in my stomach.  In such great spirits, started replaying Joe's Adventures from Mafia II, on hard level, on Steam.  Steam kept giving me the usual crap: the game would pop up and down, then stalled at the most important moment.  The mood was ruined.  Guess, the only game that Steam can play without problems is Tropico3 and Ghost Sniper... it's not the graphics issue...
I received Seven Stars in mail.  Also, received 3-D glasses: drove in them today...you really can't see the green lights out of red side, I checked, it's true.  Was trying to locate green cars, but Brooklyn streets don't have many of those, I couldn't find any.
Tomorrow I took a holiday day off, because I could.  It's not an official holiday.  I'll eat matsa and play computer...so I won't do anything all day.

another trip into subconscious

Visited grandmother. Celebrated mother's birthday at Liman.   I had eggplant Turkish salads, French fries, Turkish coffee.  After coming home I took a long nap: overate, I guess.  Now it will be a challenge to get any sleep during the nighttime.  Eh, nothing to share today, no thoughts.

EPIC cleaning

The cleaning day: it's over, finally.  The house keeper came in, saw the apartment, said that she has asthma and I need to open the windows, which I did.  Then she decided that apt was still too stuffy from smoking and just left.   My mother decided to clean instead.  I gave her all my music CDs: she needs them for work, I don't listen to music anymore.  My father brought vegetarian sushi.  After sushi, I had a bowl of ziti, with garlic salt, margarine, mozzarella soy cheese flakes and soy sauce.  I found an old game during cleaning: Hitman, Codename 47.  The first one, not included in trilogy.  I installed it, maybe will play later.  Yesterday I had problems passing Tropico3 mission Greed.  Maybe I'll finish it tonight.  Something else is weird...actually for two days...I'll have to check it later on.

ha, ha, "new" feeling today

I figured out my weird feeling after thinking about it for a while: I am not strangely tired.  I just don't have any pains after coming home.  That weird feeling made me feel uncomfortable.  As if it was a new emotion/condition that I couldn't identify.  Very weird indeed.  Now, when I know what it is, I am confident this feeling will go away very soon.

Coffee Day

I think I am tired, but differently.  Went to Manhattan for a celebration event.  Wore my new red sunglasses most of the day: everything around is pink, so bright.  The weather was cloudy but there was no rain.  I ate eggplant Parmesan with no cheese and drank four cups of coffee.  I had more coffee in Brooklyn.  Lots of coffee.  My father brought me a large quart of vinegrete salad and I ate it all after coming home.  I am tired, I think.  Tomorrow a cleaning lady will come with my mother.  I didn't want that.  My mother said it's necessary for Pesach.  I don't think she knows what Pesach celebrates, she just wants my apartment cleaned.  I am going out to get something to drink.  Non-alcoholic.  With caffeine.  I need to work on a miracle.  For my personal accomplishment.  I have a to-do list, like a New Year's resolution: to make a miracle.  I don't know how yet.

back to El Presidente

The regular (cheapest) gas is 3.99!  After coming home later than usually, I went to Dunkin Donuts/Baskin Robbins place on 86th Avenue and got myself a large Mango Coolata.  What a beautiful drink it was!  Expensive, but so cooling and filling.  
Also, I got three cinnamon raisin bagels.  I like those.  I ate one of them already.  I played the unreached campaigns in Tropico 3 all evening yesterday and once they were completed, a bunch of new ones appeared.  That's my plan for tonight: to complete those.

Philosopha2

The working day, no matter how easy it was, is over.
I purchased two lottery tickets for tonight.
Tomorrow is a big meeting, the day after is a bigger meeting.
It is probably better to be kind, then smart.
It is probably better to be naive, than wise.
It is definitely harder to be kind and naive for a long time.
It is definitely easier to live being smarter and wiser.
As we grow, our kindness and naivety is stripped away.
We become smarter and wiser.
It is easier to live then.  Yet, we look back at our previous selves, and we wonder, where is the wisdom and smartness in God...

Life goes on 2...

The rain is coming down most of the day.  I sent my mother flowers online, since it's her birthday.  My grandmother's birthday is in a week - I already ordered a bouquet with vase to be sent to her as well.  Basically, I hope I won't get any bills until next Thursday, or I will have a negative bank account balance.  It was not overly busy, but there was stuff to do at work.  I had a lot of cut pieces of tomatoes, coffee, red apple, purchased a bowl of rice but couldn't eat it - smelled suspicious.  After work I prepared a large bowl of chick peas, out of 2 cans, with pesto sauce, sprinkled mozzarella soy cheese flakes all over and heated in microwave for about 2 minutes.  I played the unfinished missions in Tropico 3 yesterday and recalled why I didn't finish them: they are hard to complete.  Played Bulletstorm demo: not bad, but not what I want.  Interesting game engine, though.  Maybe I will play Mafia II again....depends on my mood.

Philosopha

Had a soy lasagna, tomato basil soup and bread-sticks for lunch.  Did not eat the dinner yet.  Today, the other side of head on fire...growing....learning...not believing.  Well, if it's like a trip to movies, then you go to cashier, get into the seat, start watching the movie...it's not even the middle, but you wish it was...but money is paid and they don't have any other movies running in adjacent rooms, so you either leave, or sit through it.  And you realize, that no matter how bad the movie is, you got nothing else to do and nowhere else to go, so you stay.  Sometimes you want it to end already, but what else is there to do with your life?  If you are mentally stable then life becomes boring.  Boring and repetitive.  The only fun in it is checking how long you will remain mentally stable.  Cause sooner or later you will notice that all other spectators are completely mentally certifiably insane.

letting my emotions out of the car and sitting down the logic at the wheel

Visited grandma, saw mother, gave her a lift back.  She bought me Russian veggie burgers, vinegret salad and Eastern spinach pancakes.  I bought myself a pair of reddish-pink eyeglasses for driving at 99c store: cost me 4 dollars.  Not the best, but cheap, and keep glow off the road.  It's easier to drive with them, the eyes are not so strained.  And the skies look absolutely pink:)
I am starting to feel more unilateral lately...  I have to think about it...  I still have time to do so...

que sera, sera

Very not busy day at work, not much to do.  Had rice and macaroni salad with coffee for lunch.  After lunch, bought three veggie slices of pizza, have garlic nuts order in fridge.  Drinking Arizona Green Tea with Ginseng, just noticed it has honey - not a vegan choice.  I guess I am vegetarian on that one for now.  It's raining since the middle of the day.  Lots of people outside smoking, next to shops and cafes.  Ce la vi.

there's a rainbow in my stomach

It was a relatively busy day, not overwhelmingly so.  I ordered avocado sushi, miso soup, hand rolls with mango, avocado and bean curd.  I am about to eat spaghetti with black olives, mozzarella soy cheese flakes, margarine, salt, pesto sauce and soy sauce.  Then I'll have an English Tea No.1: very good tea.
I played Hitman 2 for a long time yesterday.
Checked Steam for updates to see if Fallout4 would work better.  The graphics seem better, game did not stall for at least 3 minutes, but I had to go somewhere and did not check it fully.
It is in these moments I realize that there is still plenty of stuff to be thankful for.  Life wouldn't be as good without these things.  I am talking about food'n'drink, of course.

received new car license...and car loan was paid off...by my mother.

Preparing young baby potatoes.  Had to go to Amazing Savings on Avenue M and was amazed at cheap prices: bought myself a semi-plate semi-cup of small size, peeler, other kitchen utensils, like grater and non-sticky skillet flat spoon.  Played Virtual City yesterday late evening.  When I looked at the clock it was after 2am.  Simple game, yet addictive.  I had couscous double portion with split pea soup for lunch.  And bagel with a coffee is an everyday thing.  It's nice to have food to eat.  And apartment to rent.  It's nice to breathe, live, in general.  Very pleasant.

Smoking in the Rain

Today was a very busy day.  Spent hours on the phone, the rest of the time I was moving around.  Nothing was documented: had no time for it, even lunch was an hour and a half late.   I have to pick up UPS package after 8pm.  Received a present for self: nerve/muscle stimulating electro-machine, not expensive at all.  Received new ink for printer.  Drank a lot of Diet Coke today.  In the late evening, after I come back, I am planning to continue playing Hitman2: Silent Assassin.  That's all excitement for the day.

happy day

Today was a great day: I had to go to Manhattan and was planning to take a long subway ride back to place of work and then go home in my car.  Instead, the company arranged for free transportation via car service, saving me valuable nerves.  In Manhattan I went to Bruno's which I like for unique choice of foods; the prices, however, were even more disappointing than usually.  I had baked tofu with barley and mushroom salad, coffee and a bagel.  They did not have a prepared Bernstein sandwich this time.  After work I went to Russian Baza food market and got: pickles, semi-pickled cucumbers, a small bag of young white potatoes, with some other stuff, like carrot juices, cranberry mors, and garlic/dill tofu spread.  

I installed Hitman2 and currently playing it.  Surprisingly, first Hitman was better in content, graphics, ease of character movement.  My Mega Millions numbers are: 06, 08, 14, 28, 39 and additional quick-pick...06 again.

da. peace. yah.

I think I will try to play Hitman again tonight.  If it won't do, I will go to Steam, play something already played.  Farmerama is just boring now.
I ate at my parent's apartment: veggie soup, avocados, olives, cabbage latkies (or pancakes), had a tea and several slices of fiber bread.  I also ate a lot of sunflower seeds and helped parents with computer related stuff.
I think I may need to think, but I doubt it will make me any happier.  I'd rather play computer games.

happiness, happiness, - it's all in comparison

I am comparatively happy.
It's not because I got 4 avocado/tomato/lettuce/mustard sandwiches in the deli today, not because I got large vegetable rice and veggie soup from King's Buffet, it's not because I am going to bed and don't have to wake up early tomorrow.
It's because, comparatively, I am content and happy.
Things seem to be falling into their places, I feel more in control of my body, environment is becoming more predictable, and just realization that these may have been the happiest years of my life (comparatively), makes me experience less tension.   I should be able to fall asleep better tonight.