before the New Year celebration

My father drove me from work again.  I stayed over for an hour.  I got there by car service, same 30 bucks.  It was good to find out that tomorrow I don't have to go to work due to holiday, New Year.  But...I will need to spend it with family, maybe even stay over for a night...which is not that great...but my car is still under snow (shaked some salt over it) and I can't drive back when I want.
I am boiling some old frozen udon noodle, a lot of it.  Just put some Chinese black ointment on my legs and feet - still aching after walking - called Alice and said sorry that I did not make it on time - will see her tomorrow.
Bills are high, money is disappearing fast.  Drinking a lot of coffee, hot and cold.  Should buy more red juices.  Health is so-so...weak.  Otherwise, everything is better than anyone in my situation could wish for.

I didn't play anything last night...sort of passed out.  Guess I was tired.  Don't recall seeing any dreams... Tonight I will sleep a lot, even if I go to bed very late.  I hope.  

It was a bright shining morning before Christmas.

all snowed-in

Two days I was walking to and from work by foot, in my motorcycle boots not meant for long walking.  One hour and fourty minutes each way.  After two days of such extra walking activities, my gluteus maximus are aching and I think I have corns on my souls of feet.  Today I couldn't walk anymore and ordered a car service to work (they started working, unlike public transportation).  My father drove me back when he was going home on his way from work.  Car services now charge quadruple amounts and that's not funny.
At work I received a standing hanger for clothes I bought on sale to put my new suits on.  I checked my car and it is still under at least a foot of snow - we will wait for Saturday's rain, maybe I'll be able to drive it out on Sunday then.  Definitely no earlier.  Everyone blames mayor for the usual favoritism in cleaning efforts.  Except this time they are obviously visible due to last term, I guess.  At least it's not cold from wind like before.
I am preparing elbows 35 pasta with pesto sauce, podravka, mushroom sauce and garlic salt.  I intend to eat it.
The GTA4 is un-fulfilling.  Maybe it's time to install Necrovision...

let it snow...I would, but s-know what?

It's snowing all day.  My grandmother even called and said I don't have to visit her, because my parents told her the roads are slippery, snowed in.  Snow is still coming down.  I am boiling semolina pasta in a mushroom sauce, with vegeta and salt.  Then I will put Veggis Slices romano etc. soy cheese flakes on top of it, some somen soup base and soy sauce.  After the meal, I will install GTA.  I am so glad it's not a Steam game...  Smoking R1 cigarettes... nothing special...  I am having too many space-related dreams.  My mind is playing tricks on me, using my current feelings of escapism.

computer games: fake reality within fake reality of life. gets you accustomed to real life.

I just finished Joe's Adventure.  Character of Joe is a man who lives by his own conscience and that is the most important thing in his life: to respect himself.  Character of Vito is a fatalist: he often lets fate decide how his life will go.  Interesting characters in this game.  I am waiting for another Mafia II installment with the adventures of Henry.
What's next?  Fallout4 is still stalling...  maybe GTA: Liberty City?

chilling...nothing to do...Christmas...

I played Joe's Adventure all day, until I got to the mission where Joe has to deliver a car with a bomb under the seat.  I seem to blow up each time...got frustrated.  Game stalls, Steam issues...Not even trying Fallout New Vegas, since no patches came out...  There is nothing to do.  I am boiling Ramen soup.  Maybe I'll go watch younger women dance funny on erotic sites...  It's a time killing, but not that arousing at all... I guess I am getting old.  Most of fun comes from reading the messages these young perverts write... some put out their religious and philosophical views between requests to watch naked breasts.  They are hilarious, some of them think they are not idiots.  Merry Christmas to me.  I bought a Mega Millions lottery ticket.  It won't win.  Some things in life are certain and that gives me mental stability.

Omega-3 day a-coming

Had a cheeseless pizza with broccoli, eggplant, onions, olilves and spinach at Ciccio's on Avenue U.  Very tasty.  Tomorrow I will have a day off due to Christmas holiday.  That's awesome.  Maybe I will do some laundry, maybe just play Joe's Adventure in Mafia II all day.  Not sure yet.  This month seems to be the most "chatty", it seems...judging by amount of entries.

Finally got Caster 5.  Didn't finish Jimmy's Vendetta yet:  firstly, the hard mode had excellent AI and I simply couldn't kill the bad guys, then - fatigue.  Received several gifts for New Year for parents, wrapped.  More to come.  I should buy something for grandmother as well.  So far just sending her leg bandages.
Must wait for next check: accidentally found iTwin usb thingy on web: had to buy it.  New thing.  Spent a lot of money this holidays.  But it's ok: no vacation.  Bought two cakes at Cherry Hill for tomorrow.  Also bought the dell pickles (baby) that I like and dark bread (not so tasty).  Eating maki rolls seaweed wrapped rice crackers.
Lunar eclipse came and went.  Still have to pay taxes:)  Have to pick up suits from dry cleaners tomorrow.

Baberuthing for Wholesomeness

Suits will be ready on Wednesday.  After work I wanted to eat Pho Chai soup, so I went to Pho Chai Ho, or something like that, on 86 Street.  The soup was delicious, and portion was big, but I was still hungry, so I went to Wasabi Sushi few doors up the block and bought two avocado rolls, one tofu roll and aged tofu appetizer.  I expected to eat just the avocado rolls, but it appears that my food is eaten already.  I guess I was still hungry.  Tomorrow I have to remember to buy a cake for an office party.  Updated blog design: included a gadget "Followers", so my conscience can be cleaner: not leading nobody towards nothing...  Going to finish playing Jimmy's Vendetta today, after taking a hot bath.

Peace is the message.

I was pleasantly surprised when Jimmy's Vendetta did not end at the death of Big Sal.  I still have a mission to finish and then I am done, I think.  I already purchased Joe's Adventure, another add-on to Mafia II.  I really liked Joe's character and I think I will really enjoy playing it after I am done with Jimmy.  If there will be more add-on mission, I will purchase them as well: it turned out I liked Mafia II more than I expected.

I did not shorten the pants on my three new suits: the dry cleaners close to me were closed.  I already made a mistake going to an unknown place last time and waiting three extra days before I got the suits back, so I will call them on Monday morning, hoping they will open.  Maybe I will take the suits there after work.  I was sitting at computer trying to figure out where to take vacation, but every time I would start booking, a feeling of depression would come over, I would drink espresso and cancel the reservation.  Maybe it's the change in weather.  Maybe I am effected by it.  By the way, on Tuesday we are expecting a red moon.  Maybe there'll be a nice meteor shower at the same time...and if the world still stands, I got 3 more packs of Lavazza.
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philosophical thought of the day: wartime legalizes murder.  a period before war is marked by increased corruption, which legalizes thievery.  when corruption is legitimized, the rapes and tortures and denial of human rights is legalized.  for some reason, it always leads to more violence, not less.  humanity is breaking the code of holy ten commendments, one after another under the guise of fighting with "the shit".  It appears that the more "shit" you have, the more you are fighting that "shit" in others.

maybe shopping will sooth the soul?

I realized that some of my suits are more than 10 years old and no matter how many times I will take them to dry cleaners, they just looked...slightly chewed, as if they are definitely not new.  Therefore, it make them appear to be less clean.  So I decided to use the Christmas sale time to buy me new suits.  My father got very excited and suggested to go to far-away mall to search for super discounts either today or tomorrow.  He got excited, because there is absolutely nothing to do and doing something meaningful, at least seemingly, is always a feel-good in our meaningless, pointless little world.

Busy day at work.  Ordered from Dynasty chinese food restaurant: got a free calendar (gave it away, but it was rather fancy).  Food was not cheap at all, but tasty.  I had bean curd with broccoli in garlic sauce.  Upon coming home, an hour and a half later, I had a ready-made rice soup.  I will continue playing Jimmy's Vendetta later on.

Vendetta

Finished Metro 2033 on Ranger level.  Achieved new achievement: Survivor tag.  Started playing an add-on to Mafia II: Jimmy's Vendetta.  Very nice, just like the main game.  Saw something downloading onto Steam for Fallout New Vegas: could it be very needed patch?
Tomorrow is party with coworkers.  I gotta put on a different jacket, something straight from the dry cleaners.
Can't fall asleep even after taking benadryl.  Bought artificial bouquet (actually, two) for my office: I forget to water real plants and they die fast.  Got sleepers as Christmas present from a grateful client.  She brought gifts for many.  Ordered chocolate tower, 7 boxes for administrative secretaries.  They came in today, cute.  Then I started to worry that secretaries are single and not that old, so they could have seen it as a crush.  Acted like an idiot, explained that it's politeness, as if they didn't know.  Hey, I don't want sexual harassment on my hands for holiday spirit...  It's crazy nowdays.  Although Switzerland yesterday allowed official incest.  Who expected that lobby to be so strong?  Anyway... Sent card to Sylvia.  Nothing to report.  Going to try to sleep after a hot shower.

I still got nothing to say to nobody...as weird as it may sound

Upon morning meditation, I concluded that everything is going great in my life and there is nothing I need to change about it.  It is a great accomplishment to be assured in own self-righteousness.  It is very good to feel as if you earned the right to breathe until the moment of your death comes.  There is nothing more that needs to be accomplished.  Everything is OK.  It's just about making peace with time, relaxing own mind, chilling, maintaining the same level of functioning and wishing peace to everybody .

I already paid 50 bucks (by the way, why do Americans call their currency as they call deers?) to be at the Christmas corporate party this week.   I think it will be held Thursday late pm until the morning.  It's funny: corporate+Christmas+party, ha ha.  But it's a great social event to say: I am here, and I still need a job, please don't fire me without much reason for it.  More of a social gathering to show your face amongst coworkers in emergent recession: look, I am celebrating something with you, maybe it is more than a paycheck that keeps my ass close to you on a weekly basis.  Maybe not, but who will be able to tell, anyway?

tis' the season to be jolly

Came from work, not overloaded day.  Had an espresso: mixed Lavazza and El Caribe coffees, turned out to be something like Dunkin Donut Turbo, which is excellent.  People on the radio discussed new taxes all day: what are they going to do, leave the city?  Eventually, after more new taxes will be implemented, with some more "can't smoke here, can't park there, taxes for calling 911" I will consider moving away from New York along with plenty of residents, but so far it still good.  Of course, New York 13-15 years ago was much better, with much more prosperity for everyone, not just rich...with less sicknesses, crime, terrorist watches, more healthier families, less divorce rates, less expensive everything, but I guess we get what we choose and we can't choose well.  But on the other hand, it's not New Yorkers.  It's all over the whole world., same thing in every country, up and down the equator.  I guess it's the trend of times.  I guess we are not going to "make it" after all.  Oh well, I just had Ramen soup (traditional) with Veggie Slices three soy cheese flavored flakes - now that's something to discuss!!  I also had some Wise Onion and Garlic potato chips, left over General Tso's tofu and some gyoza.  I just purchased an add-on to Mafia II: Jimmy's Vendetta, 10 bucks.  But I am still in the Ranger mode of Metro 2033.  Steam, being Steam, is stalling, once in 40 minutes.  That's acceptable, not as bad as Fallout New Vegas.  I tried to play it again: stalling all the time, no fun.  Noticed that Steam downloaded Team Fortress II Beta.  I used to play it, then Steam "updated" and the image on screen got split in half.  I couldn't play it after, even after reinstall.  Wonder if Beta version will play.  I'll find out over the weekend.  Life's been good so far, and today is Friday, December 10, 2010.  I've made it so far in life. Yeah!

dreams to think about

"Layered" reality:
Simultaneous cumulative experience of life.

Idea for new gadget I would buy:  GPS hand watch.

I am not Locutus, borgs

Preparing pasta.  It was a busy day at the office.  Today I had more energy than usual.  It was snowing today, with some sunshine.  The weather was very cold.  I am heating the apartment with oven even though the central heating is on.  Got a discount in cafeteria today and a free Sierra Mist can: came for free with someone's order and they decided they didn't want it so much.  Received first holiday season cards from one of the departments, so I ordered cards online - should be here in a week.  Soon parents will stop by to pick up CD they asked me to make.  Even sooner I will be enjoying semolina pasta with new mushroom dry flakes spices.  Had a tea between my coffees today.  Life's ok.  Colder temperatures ahead - more energy.  Nice.

joe barbaro turned out to be the hero of the game

Got the laundry, visited mom/grandmom, bought stuff to drink and eat, most of it in 99c store on Avenue Z and Coney Island, rest in Fair Grocery.  Finished playing Mafia II: game was excellent, ending was horrible: Joe turned out to be Man of the Year, Vito, the main character, did not end on a noble note.  Checked Fallout4, even in windowed mode: same crap, game short-circuits every 15 minutes.  I can't enjoy it.  Too bad, I will keep it on computer, maybe check it in a month - hopefully it will be patched.  Clearly the issue is poor recognizability of NVIDIA graphics card.  I doubt it can be fixed on my end, it's up to game developers.  Maybe they should come up with the same standards in video cards and everybody will buy that, sort of like Windows OS.  I noted that Metro 2033 was downloading something in background: turned out there is a new Ranger mode, easy and hardcore.  Since I don't feel like unpacking GTA (Liberty City) - would be similar to Mafia II - I am making up my "thirst" for survivalist Stalker-Fallout type games by replaying Metro 2033 in a Ranger mode.  It's ok, doubt there will be any good games coming out in the next 6 months anyway, might as well prolong the pleasures of playing some good old stuff.  I noted that Arizona Green Tea with Ginseng and Honey is now sold in Extra Sweet kind: thought it wouldn't matter but the taste is better.  Now I'll finish my Hiltons with some Snapple and Metro 2033 and call it a night.

it's all about peace, as usual.

Took laundry to cleaners, visited parent(s): mother is absent, went to theater.  Drank two cups of tea there; usually I drink coffee.  Had three pastries I like, vegan: feel like I gained a pound just now.  Nothing to drink in apartment but Jumex mango nectar - I should have bought something to drink.  I might have extra small can of Mr. Brown coffee, however, have to check the fridge.  Will continue to play Mafia II.  I like the characters.  As if they were created with real people in mind.  It's been cold outside all day.  My father bought me an autumn coat - no better than mine, not many pockets, but supposed to be warmer than my windbreaker.  Ok, whatever.
Yesterday on the news anchors discussed NASA discovery of alien life forms.  It's all over internet today. Fucktards.  I ain't buying it.  First demons, now aliens.  They can shove this crap up their asses any day, I'm out of these games.  There was a world, they fucked it up, now it's going to die.  End of story. No need to worry.  It's all about peace.  And food, and rental payments.  And job.  I don't need this shit in my life or whatever is left of it.

whatever happens on Earth, stays on Earth

Played Mafia II : good game, easy, relaxing, very nice so far.  Steam stalls only once an hour+.  If Fallout 4 would be stalling like that, I'd be playing it now still.  I am eating couscous kasha, it's almost 1am and the benadryl is not taking any effect, so I can't fall asleep.  I will be tired tomorrow morning.  Now I ran out of Hilton Gold, smoking R1 and L&B (if any mayor reads this, they were bought abroad legally and taxes were payed over there included in price of purchase), but Hilton Gold were better, I should have ordered more of them...Well, I am still waiting for possible delivery of other brand of cigarettes, maybe they will taste better.