no motivation

Strange mood: don't want to play games, don't feel like watching other's chat, don't want to do anything, not even think.  So I played some mini-games, got bored in an hour.  Thought it was depression, so I had a thick espresso with cigarettes, but it didn't help a bit.  Guess it's not depression, just apathy.
It's nice that I don't have to open my mouth at home except for occasional call from parents.  It's nice I could just sit and do nothing after work.  It's quiet.  Next worth playing game comes out only in few months.  Nothing to buy.  Maybe they already ate all the good game programmers and artists.  I was told at work I gained weight.  So I ate a full bowl of potatoes and pasta after I came home.  Meah!